My father has always told me, ‘don’t trust anyone, not even me, only your mother’ and that has been something that has stuck. Maybe it stuck because he always reminded me, but I think this advice has stuck with me, because people prove it to be true everyday.
I can not explain the frustration I feel towards myself every time I allow someone to to take advantage of me. And I am not talking about just anybody, I mean people that I am close with, people that are involved in my everyday life, and my future plans. It amazes me how someone who knows you best, who you’ve allowed into your life on so many levels, can have absolutely not regards for your feelings.
It is sad that you have to live in such a guarded space when it comes to friendships and relationships. Lies are spoken more fluently then love, and conversations are no longer the solution to the issues. “Friends” compete with each other, and ruin friendships because of insecurities. How is it possible to function normally in a world where you can not trust anyone. Not even the ones closes to you, keeping everyone at a distance becomes lonely.
Of course naturally people are all about self, but at what point do people realize, relationships make you successful in life. We were not put on this earth alone, there are millions of people for a reason. You need others to go about life and progress. Think about that before betraying people close to you, because you see a gain in the outcome.
But you can not let people change who you are, you should not have to alter yourself to make anyone feel better. I do not want to live my life scared to open up in relationships, I do not want to be bitter. I want to enjoy life, the people in my life, go on vacations, eat great food, drink great wine and create wonderful memories.
I will never forget this information, because if you expect the worse, you’ll never be disappointed.